| 2010 |
[Nov. 3rd, 2010|04:17 pm] |
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Hello 2011:
So many things happen during in year 2010.
I doubt i have time to write during the December period.
I got a new job and i am loving every minute of it despite it taking up all my time in the world and i am so glad all my friends understand that this is so important to me. i am gonna spend 4 years to work my way up. My colleagues are great! i adore them so much! we are really like a family. there are laughters everyday and i am so glad they are part of my life now.
my relationship. it's still the same. dated a few and end up with nothing. I am taking things slow on this end. very slow actually. i miss the holding hands, the chats, the stuffs that you talked together when you're a couple. time will see everything through.
my friends. i lost some i gain some. nothing to look back really. Friends that stuck with me now, i really appreaciate and i will even cherish even more. I got my best friend wedding this December! i am the emcee for her. i am sooo happy! glad she found someone she loves. and get to spend the rest of her life with Leonard!
okay, short and quick update!
love all! |
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| Chicken Little is BACK! |
[Jun. 17th, 2010|11:26 am] |
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We don't stop playing because we grow old;
We grow old because we stop playing.
OhMmMmmmmmmm~ |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 27th, 2010|12:17 am] |
i started tearing at 1211 hours.
i don't know why.
i've not been myself for a very long time.
i don't dare to open that door of mine.
i took up smoking to hate myself even more.
i do hate myself.
ha! ha!
that is so sad.
i think i am punishing myself for something.
i am running of excuses and i am very tired.
four years ended on a short note.
i am actually am only feeling what i should be feeling now.
12 Feb 2006 - 30 Mar 2010
time to start a brand new story? already? |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 20th, 2010|06:57 pm] |
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i miss you, kushumewmew. |
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| the middle man |
[May. 19th, 2010|07:16 pm] |
this is going to be short:
i think i reached my lowest today.
i don't if it's work or personal issues.
but yeah.
i never felt like this for a long time. |
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[May. 13th, 2010|03:29 pm] |
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" 不要以为人生还很长，机会还很多。你不说对方永远不会知道你心里的想法。" |
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| which one? |
[May. 11th, 2010|02:45 pm] |
同樣在一個地球上。
會發生什麼火花？
你一生是會喜歡上一樣的人嗎？
會不會太巧？
世界還真小。
我從不覺得世界會大到找不到一個人適合你。
你呢？
有經曆過嗎？
你的決定會是什麼？
感覺太熟悉？
你喜歡什麼？
陌生還是熟悉。 |
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| me and i |
[May. 10th, 2010|03:29 pm] |
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Me: I am afraid.
I: what are you afraid of?
Me: I am afraid to move forward.
I: why? Isn’t that supposed to be a good thing, to move forward?
Me: I miss the good old times. I want it back.
I: but you’ve let go. Once you let go, it’s very hard to get it back.
Me: I know. I can’t do much, can I?
I: nope. Nothing much you can do.
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Me: I lost me.
I: when did you lost you?
Me: when I lost her.
I: find the new you.
Me: I am trying…
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I: life full of regrets. Whether you learn from the regret, that’s another thing.
Me: I want to make happy regrets.
I: me too. Life’s not that perfect, ain’t it?
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I: if you see her, what would you say to her?
Me: I missed you.
I: that’s it?
Me: yep. All the entire words in the world pretty much sum up to what that sentence means.
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Me: what do you see me in 5 years time?
I: Same old you.
Me: that’s it?
I: pretty much. I doubt you change… except your weight… |
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| the new job |
[May. 6th, 2010|05:01 pm] |
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the new job.
i felt like i've aged ten years. don't think it is a good thing. how do you even deal with politics? i hate it. i was trying to contain my anger everyday and the only outlet i have is through sleeping it away. and i am not getting much of that either.
do i miss my old job. maybe? i think i am learning new things and am definitely trying to avoid offending the wrong people. should i leave? maybe. not so soon. everyday, my life is being suck it in.
sucking in everything. you can't do much about anything around here. the only thing to do is to keep quiet and bitch during smoking sessions.Bitching and bitching. it seems to be the favourite pasttime of everyone.
Everyone around me seems so drained and morale? what is morale? non is here! meetings and meetings non stop. and endless, meaningless direction. i am lost. maybe because i lost myself to alot of things.
where is the old me? i think i lost it when i lost you. |
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| sex & the city? |
[Apr. 21st, 2010|02:19 pm] |
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got a friend getting married end of this year. actually, got two cousins getting married end of this year. actually, also got a friend getting married next year, and i suppose this is when it dawns on me - i am at that marrying age. fuck. and i am single and lesbian. lovely lovely thought.
i have come to the conclusion that i don't fancy weddings, but will make my obligatory appearances i assure you (if you are mates in question reading this). i am somewhat comforted by the fact that after the wedding age comes the divorce age. and then the sick (more often than not) age. and then the funeral age (edit: i completely forgot the child-bearing age). i am also somewhat comforted by the thought of open bar, but slightly deflated i cannot drink myself stupid. i shall be the one sipping beers at the corner table, only ever so slightly sulking at my sans plus one.
wondered aloud with a friend how a virgin bride on the wedding night would feel and what happens if sex with newly wedded husband reveals itself to be more a chapter from blair witch than the backseat scene in titanic. i pointed out that chaste bride has nothing to compare with, thus unable to make a proper assessment. i made an excellent point, but however inexperienced, i'm pretty certain a girl can tell whether she fancies what goes on between her legs. i shrugged at the sad thought of clumsy people struggling to have clumsy sex for the rest of their clumsy sad sex lives, or so they have promised each other.
Note to Self: Be happy with what you get... |
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